Reflection

I took leave today,
I am happy because at last!! I can rest....

I'm tired with all the things that happen around me.
The tension that I have, The feelings I have.
I have make my decision to resign from my current job.
As it really make me tired and hard to breath.
That's why I took leave today, and really give myself a time.
A time to sit down and to think of my life; my future.

I realize that all these while I'm trying to deal with my weakness.
I'm learning how to be strong; how to be calm in the storm.
I put my effort to do the best and to perform well.
I tried so hard until I forget about myself.
The "ME"

I spend so much time dealing with my weakness;
and I forgotten to improve and develop my strength.
I put so much effort in achieving;
and I have forgotten to enjoy my life.
I hold it so close until I don't want to let it go.
I try my best to do what I HAVE to ;
and I forgotten what I WANT to do.

Derek ever tell me to find "opportunity" not look into the "limit"
True.
In my work place there's no "limit"; there's opportunity
Opportunity to success in doing it.
I know I can perform well if I were giving some times more.
However I do not want this.
Because I know whatever happen,
at the end of the day,
I loose my identity as "Sharon", because I try to be good
I try to be good in my job in the eyes of my superior;
and I forget to love myself, to take care my self;
I failed to follow my dream.

I learned a great lesson today.
What I need is not really achieve and overcome my weakness.
But to develop my strength, and to enjoy my life.
To live the life that I want,
To do the things that make me happy again.
That is God's desire and calling
To be happy....

I pray also for my 2 friend that have decided to resign
(coincidentally a day before I decided) that they will find their way.
My friend, find your happiness....