Wish me luck

I still couldn’t believe that I’m now sitting in the airport and waiting for my flight. Time pass so fast, 1 week for preparation certainly not enough. Time given is just too short for me to think again. On my way to airport, I keep on thinking and asking myself: "is this what I want?" "Is it the right decision?" None of my questions are answered. I don’t know is it what I want or I will enjoy it or not. But something for sure is that I will not regret for my decision at least for now. It is something new because I have to start all over again; it’s a challenge for me. Wish me luck

you can not do it alone

A very important lesson I learn today is: you can not do it alone!!
DO NOT be afraid to ask help from others. It's a long long day, early morning before 8 I take my motorcycle and make a way to General hospital. (o.O)" looks like I'm not the one who want to do medical checkup. The bad news is if I'm going to do my medical checkup, I'll have to wait until next Saturday. How to do it?? Fly far away from KK?? -.-" So better go private clinic la. Then the next thing to deal, banking. from A to B, from B to C.... I also (@.@)" Luckily I meet few friends and they teach me how to save time and deal with all the "unfinished" thing. Can't imagine to buy a pin No, I'l have to wait 100 people in front of me...... But then again, Good things happen ^^ A friend of mine help me and from 100 people in front of me, now is 3 more...hehe....so nice.
The world is belong to everyone, its our responsibility to taking care of each other.

my 48 hours

17 June
23:08- I still waiting.... 50++ more minute...for the result to out.
24:00- OMG can check result already, my heart beat so fast.....so nervous...
18 June
00:10- "OMG" is my first response when I know I get UMS. even though I have 3 option filling UMS out of 8 choices, I never though I will get to go Sabah.
00:25- I'm happy cause can get in to University....
01:39- Finally, I sleep after insomia...
01:59- Someone phone me...in 2am in the morning to help her check????? Dam! So hard for me to closed my eyes and now....of course i'm continue sleeping after explaination...
06:11- Couldn't sleep more.....wake up and let time pass
13:00-20:oo Busy reply sms and phone call
19 June
12:45- Phone Mr Jimmy after received 3 miss call....so sorry..hehe.... He ask me to think again if that is what i really want. He don't want i regret later on.
14:10- I sit down and pray, listen to my own heart..
14:50- YES, I'm going.
23:08- update my blog

University applicants to know results next week

KUALA LUMPUR: STPM school-leavers who applied for places in public universities will know by Wednesday if they are among the 40,116 who were successful.
According to Higher Education Ministry sources, a total of 68,110 students had applied for places in public universities last year.
Earlier, Higher Education Minister Datuk Seri Mohamed Khaled Nordin said the new Higher Education Department director-general Prof Datuk Dr Radin Umar Radin Sohadi would announce the intake next week.
He said this after officiating the launch of The International Centre for Education in Islamic Finance’s (INCEIF) Masters in Islamic Finance.
INCEIF is the only university in the world that is dedicated to education in Islamic finance and banking.
“The demand for professionals in Islamic finance is great,” said Khaled.
He pointed out that a recent study showed that Islamic banks in Gulf Cooperation Council countries need to fill 30,000 new positions over the next decade.
Currently, 3,778 students are studying courses related to Islamic banking and finance at IPTAs. According to Bank Negara projections, about 11,600 trained professionals in Islamic finance are needed by 2010.

-taking from the star newspaper http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/6/13/nation/21537733&sec=nation

New job

I feel tired, I want to get some sleep to make sure I'm not late to my work place tomorrow morning. Yes, my second job this year after working in clinic for the past 3 and a half month. I still remember when my best friend S.H ask me if I can replace the teacher who gone to holiday for about 2 weeks. I'm so exited and I quickly reply her "YES". I feel like it is a call, well since I have no plan so....why not? It definitely will be a good experience. But then no, I feel so scare and nervous. I'm too scare and worry is hunting me, it's hard for me to close my eyes. I still remember my *new bos told me that:"don't worry, I know you can do it. I don't know why but somehow I knew you will." OMG !! So stress when heard that sentence. It's not the first time I heard the sentence. It fill like I'm climbing the mount Kota Kinabalu with a bag of rocks in my back. "The more expectation, the bigger the disappointment" don't know I will use this sentences or not at the end. (hehe) Teaching is not my expert since I'm not patient enough to teach the weak, moreover I've to deal with children (monsters). I don't know I'm the one who 'eat' them or they 'eat' me. Haha.... It's a big responsibility if you are dealing with children, as their mind are so 'pure' and 'clean' not forget to mention unique. It's hard to tell what a child is thinking compare to an adult. But dealing with them is fun, because they will not harm you or even hurt you. I take this job as a challenge for me, I believe I will try my best and do the best I can. God bless.

form 6 and me

Less than 20 days, and all the STPM students' waiting and patient will come to an ending. Are they(me) accepted into local university? Are they(me) happy or feeling sad with the result? While waiting, I spend my time visiting forum after back from work. Recently, I read some students' comments and their experience during form 6. It reminds me what happen in those days. I'm in form 6 for around 2 years, it's not that long but really meaningful. Next, I'm going to share my form 6 life, What I learned, what I gained, what I loosed, have I changed? Have I grown?
Some people believe in process and not result, for me both of them are important. If the result not good enough, but at least the process must be good/satisfy. Now,

1. Why form 6?
I still remember when I got my SPM result, and my father asked me what I want to be? What I want to study? What is my plan? I could not answer, because I wasn't too sure what I want. I'm still thinking health or management? At first, I'm thinking hotel management because I'm quite interested, but then I wasn't prepared yet to leave this town to further my studies. I'm too scared to make decision, I don't want make the wrong decision and feel regret later. I still remember I told my father after I think a while:"I don't want study form 6, it's hard" But then I think again, if I want to become a nurse I can chose either diploma or degree. Well since I'm not too sure what I want and what is the best choice. Why not form 6? It's hard, yeah...take it as a challenge; I do love challenge. I believe I can do it, why not try? Then few days later I told my father I'm going to form 6. All I remember was he reply me:"I though you said it's hard?" and I replied with a smile on my face. Thus few months later, my journey began in a new school, new environment with new teachers and new friends.

2 What I learned?
Two words. A LOT. I learned from how an atom make up to become molecule to how to communicate to people. Some thing you did not learn in books. I learned from how to become a good friend and student to a good leader. I learned how to be nice to people to how to deal with them. I learned how to care,love and sacrifice for the good of others. I learned life is not easy as we though it will be, and giving up is not a solution. I learned how to forgive and forgets. I learned a lot Learn, never ends.

3 What I gained?
knowledge; Biology is a big world to explore. It make me realise that everything around us is connected, from plant to human being. From maths to politic, from how a person vote to how the law was introduced.
Friendship; I meet new friends and relationship with my friends is much more stronger than before as we all go through a lot of hard time together.
Faith; the most important access in life. Once you have faith, what ever will be will be.
Love; people around me are so nice, I didn't expect that I will meet friend's parent and make her house like mine. I'm too small to accept care and love from friends and teachers.
Hope; I learned. Not to give up easily. There is always hope as long as we believe.
Peace; forgiveness is the way to gain peace.
Memories-pain, all are passed. We move on, we can not change what had happened, but we can change our though. Sweet memories- the best memories I have in secondary school life.

Form 6 - Asean most difficult exam, world's top 3 exam.
For me finally come to an ends, but the memories and experience will always in my mind.

It's time to say Good bye

It’s time to say Good Bye. Good Bye to my temporary work in clinic here. For the past three and half month I’m working here. It feel so fast, time pass so fast and now is the month of June. For the pass 3 months, I spending my time working, at the same time learning and prepare myself to further my studies. When I work I learn a lot of things, from disease to medicine. Even though it’s a bit, but the knowledge I gain really helpful. I remember I read an article before:
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
For the last few months I meet some person who appear in my life for “reason”
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on...
People I meet help me to move on, and guide me. The most important lesson I learn is think and double check. You never know if your ‘little’ mistake might put someone in danger, and the most terrible is you can not forgive yourselves and you might try so hard to get yourselves out of the fears. Stop work doesn’t mean holiday, it just a break. A break before we move on to a longer journey. All The Best!!