Feeling stress,
Carrying big responsibilities.
I’m worry, I worry that the responsibilities I carry now will influence my study and exam result just like last time. When this feeling occur, I suddenly remember my friends. Friends that always with me.
Who always support me and help me a lot.
When I’m out for duty/ meeting, they always help me take note, and remind me when to pass up my homework or inform me the test.
Now, I’m alone in this journey. I have to do it all by myself. Can I really do it? Can I beer? Can I handle it with patient? Am I strong enough to go through?
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00:32, 29/7/09
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
headache
Headache…..
Really feeling tired, stress, and tension.
A lot of things to be done this semester, proposal, paper work, lab report, study,
A lot until I realize that I kind of “forgotten” my spiritual life. My spiritual life that lead me the way. The Light that provides me the strength to go on, I forget to ask strength from Him, and I forget to thank Him for everyday He had prepared for me. O God, forgive me.
My paper work and proposal not yet start doing, still waiting the complete details. Save me from this tension……
Really feeling tired, stress, and tension.
A lot of things to be done this semester, proposal, paper work, lab report, study,
A lot until I realize that I kind of “forgotten” my spiritual life. My spiritual life that lead me the way. The Light that provides me the strength to go on, I forget to ask strength from Him, and I forget to thank Him for everyday He had prepared for me. O God, forgive me.
My paper work and proposal not yet start doing, still waiting the complete details. Save me from this tension……
Monday, July 13, 2009
tension
Tension…. Proposal not yet done, not even start…
The chairman also has no idea about the information of the program?
I miss home, just phone back just now.
After phone call my tears come out..
I just miss…
Hai…=.=”
Jia you la..
The chairman also has no idea about the information of the program?
I miss home, just phone back just now.
After phone call my tears come out..
I just miss…
Hai…=.=”
Jia you la..
Saturday, July 11, 2009
i miss home
It has been the second week for me in Sabah.
This time I miss my home “faster” then last time. Probably it was the impact from the 6 weeks long holiday, or it might be the conscious of loving family. I guess it doesn’t matter for me anymore if I work offshore, oversea, going around the world exploring, as long as I got work. At this moment, I don’t really mind working near to hometown anymore. I started to feel the importance of my family and life over there. Time is really short; you never know what is important and what your precious jewels are until you lost them. For the pass few months’ death and bad news occur in my life and my friend’s also. I started to realize that I’m getting into adulthood, or another word: getting older.
Many things will change, and you won’t be able to stop or change them. But yet something that we can do is to appreciate while you still can.
This time I miss my home “faster” then last time. Probably it was the impact from the 6 weeks long holiday, or it might be the conscious of loving family. I guess it doesn’t matter for me anymore if I work offshore, oversea, going around the world exploring, as long as I got work. At this moment, I don’t really mind working near to hometown anymore. I started to feel the importance of my family and life over there. Time is really short; you never know what is important and what your precious jewels are until you lost them. For the pass few months’ death and bad news occur in my life and my friend’s also. I started to realize that I’m getting into adulthood, or another word: getting older.
Many things will change, and you won’t be able to stop or change them. But yet something that we can do is to appreciate while you still can.
Friday, July 03, 2009
Consious
Have you ever think back after you make a decision?
I did
Well, sometimes you will question yourself: why I make this decision at first? If I think back I feel that I make the wrong decision. OR it seems that you already forget why you make the decision at first.
Few days ago, I’ve been thinking, wandering, and questioning myself: did I make a wrong decision? Then I remember someone told me that “Now” is more important than “Pass” and “Future”. This three word created by conscious. Well conscious allow you to realize that you are thinking for these three situations. When you are making decision, what’s important is NOW. ‘Future’ is important but no one knows what will happen in “future”. “Pass” was not so important, because what had happen was a pass. Conscious allow you to forgive, since it already “pass”,
conscious allow you to aware, since “future” is coming,
and conscious allow you enjoy, since “now” is this moment that only occur once in a lifetime.
So don’t feel guilty or sorry after making decisions, the feelings and conscious of needs that occur that time were the elements that actually influence your decision. Whatever happens, I still believe God is there, for every bad thing that happens it will bring goodness or meaning. You will not know if you do not choose to believe that god is there, He did it for you, not to harm you but to give you blessings.
I did
Well, sometimes you will question yourself: why I make this decision at first? If I think back I feel that I make the wrong decision. OR it seems that you already forget why you make the decision at first.
Few days ago, I’ve been thinking, wandering, and questioning myself: did I make a wrong decision? Then I remember someone told me that “Now” is more important than “Pass” and “Future”. This three word created by conscious. Well conscious allow you to realize that you are thinking for these three situations. When you are making decision, what’s important is NOW. ‘Future’ is important but no one knows what will happen in “future”. “Pass” was not so important, because what had happen was a pass. Conscious allow you to forgive, since it already “pass”,
conscious allow you to aware, since “future” is coming,
and conscious allow you enjoy, since “now” is this moment that only occur once in a lifetime.
So don’t feel guilty or sorry after making decisions, the feelings and conscious of needs that occur that time were the elements that actually influence your decision. Whatever happens, I still believe God is there, for every bad thing that happens it will bring goodness or meaning. You will not know if you do not choose to believe that god is there, He did it for you, not to harm you but to give you blessings.
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