I need to tell myself its okay.
Even if it hurt, its okay.
I just need to be strong.
Everything will be fine.

Reflection

I took leave today,
I am happy because at last!! I can rest....

I'm tired with all the things that happen around me.
The tension that I have, The feelings I have.
I have make my decision to resign from my current job.
As it really make me tired and hard to breath.
That's why I took leave today, and really give myself a time.
A time to sit down and to think of my life; my future.

I realize that all these while I'm trying to deal with my weakness.
I'm learning how to be strong; how to be calm in the storm.
I put my effort to do the best and to perform well.
I tried so hard until I forget about myself.
The "ME"

I spend so much time dealing with my weakness;
and I forgotten to improve and develop my strength.
I put so much effort in achieving;
and I have forgotten to enjoy my life.
I hold it so close until I don't want to let it go.
I try my best to do what I HAVE to ;
and I forgotten what I WANT to do.

Derek ever tell me to find "opportunity" not look into the "limit"
True.
In my work place there's no "limit"; there's opportunity
Opportunity to success in doing it.
I know I can perform well if I were giving some times more.
However I do not want this.
Because I know whatever happen,
at the end of the day,
I loose my identity as "Sharon", because I try to be good
I try to be good in my job in the eyes of my superior;
and I forget to love myself, to take care my self;
I failed to follow my dream.

I learned a great lesson today.
What I need is not really achieve and overcome my weakness.
But to develop my strength, and to enjoy my life.
To live the life that I want,
To do the things that make me happy again.
That is God's desire and calling
To be happy....

I pray also for my 2 friend that have decided to resign
(coincidentally a day before I decided) that they will find their way.
My friend, find your happiness....

It's Lent again

It's had been more that 2 months I stop blogging.
I'm quite busy with works, and really feel tired.
Tired of getting complains,
tired of the things which is unorganized,
where things are out of control,
tired of the human behavious and the problems that comes along the way.
I guess in all the situations, the feelings I have
I need to VOICE it out!
Well thanks to my friend Stephanie,
I'm starting to write again
(since someone is reading my blog! =) )

Somehow, untill this point of my life,
I still believe that i'm called to be here where I've worked.

To learn to be patient;
To learn how to talk and manage;
To learn to have courage;
To learn how to be confident;
To learn how to not let my compassion
be my weakness, but my strength.
To learn to stand for truth and just
even though there's reason for mistake.
To be still in the storm;
To sing praise in the trials
To have faith in God, no matter what.

My favourite day is still Sunday,
cause I can go to church!
I can be just me.
I don't have to pretend to be strong;
I don't have to be stright
infront my staff and my colleage.
I can just be me, be kind, be good listener
and always smile and have fun whole day!
Thank God for that opportunity!

It seem to have 2 life and two personality,
but then again I need to count the blessing I have,
and to appreciate the unexpecting joys I have.
To see the good in all the trials I have.

God, in this Lent
give me the serenity to accept things I cannot change;
give me the courage to forgive;
strengthen me in this journey
as I experience what you have experienced before;
continue to inspire and bless me
so that I may be blessing to others. Amen