To Let Go.

We always though all of us will always be together,
but......... we are wrong,
When there is a 'Hello',
that's a 'Good Bye'.
We do know that each and everyone of us
will go with our own way one day.
We never know how it going to be……
or when it will be…...
We just know the time will come
and we have to say 'Good Bye'
Time past fast, it never wait me or you,
not anyone....
Each and everyone of us will go with our own way,
someday......
but I never know that it will be that fast
when I heard from friend that they are living…
(or might)
For their dream…..
It’s a good news for them, we are happy for them,
We feel the joy......
We are..............
Because they finally found what they seek for.
We encourage them to go,
but at the same time deep down in our heart
hoping that they stay with us…
But we do know it will never happen,
Again and again, we convince them to go,
Follow their own dreams….
Because we know they will find their happiness in their career/
The path way they had chosen.
In action we persuade them to follow their dreams
deep down in our heart,
feeling sad at the same time,
cause we had to let them go………..
and we must let go.............
so that they can fly high..........
That is the only things we can do,
To let go.............

self ?

Is it hard to just be……….. Ourselves?
Why we must be another person?
Other sees us as someone good….
Someone kind, cheerful, responsibility….
(Bla bla)
Is it what they saw in us?
Or just they think we are that kind of people?
The true is….
Sometime we are not that kind of
Person they saw/they meet…
We just.......
-ME-
Ourselves…….
Can’t we just be what we want?
Why we must be that kind of person they want/
Even it is not wrong,
To be someone else,
But I just want to be myself….
Someone who likes freedom…..
Do whatever I want......
I like who I am…….
I don’t want to be a person
Who is a great person in other people eyes……….
A person who is capable to do everything
Or finish the task given…..
The truth is…….
I’m human being……
I make mistake, I’m not a perfect person….
I’m not like what they think…..
Why I can’t just be….myself?
Is it wrong?
It is a stress, a burden……
To be what other people want you to be…..
And you will never be……….

Being…myself…
Is a freedom for me…
Is a joyful….
I want others to accept and appreciate
Who I am,
And what I have in me…..
That is all I want……
Be myself….and true to myself…
Not to recognize…….
Gifts that I don’t really have……

Friend.......

Just now I talk to my friend
Through phone.
We talk about last time how we
Run the club……
How my junior had grown up now
Haha…..
Their leadership skills…
The way they handle things.
It’s so amazing…..
Even I myself can’t believe that….
But that is the true…
Good news…..=)
And of course recall back…..
The bad memories we have during the
Last meeting….
Everyone with sad mood…
(Better don’t talk about it,
Let the story disappear forever….
What ever happened, it happened…
Don’t repeat…….)

Then we mention K in our conversation.
My friend tell me that,
K is someone who………
And doing things with some ‘reason’
The ‘reason’ that earn her…..give her
Benefits….
I’m shocked……someone I believe
Who is kind and have the potential
To become a good leader,
And a great person
Is actually like what my friend told me….
Hmm…..
Hard to believe and accept…..
But that is the true that we can’t change
How is she?
The answer?
No one knows………
I fail to get answer from friends around me
After she married, she lost contact…..
Even her best friend doesn’t know what happen to her…
The only thing we know is that she already gave birth…..

Why human being lost contact?
Busy? Or try to avoid?
I remember a best friend of mine,
She changed her phone number….
And didn’t let me know……
I know about it only when I talk to her sister.

Why this will happen?
I though friendship is something special.
Maybe the world’s greatest relationship after
Relationship with family members………….
Is it possible to get a ‘true best friend’?
I still remember, a friend of mine ask me before….
My Answer?
Well it is possible….
Anything is possible in this world,
As long we believe…….
But it’s not easy…..
We never know when? Where? How?
And Who?
We only know after we found it…
Sometimes, when we though we found someone
Who is………..
That can share everything with us….
It just….
We are wrong…..
Only 1 sentence they said…..
Or 1 thing they did/ didn’t…….
It makes us think twice…..
Are they our best friend??
I’m not sure……
Really don’t know…..
My definition for the word friendship?
SHARING
Share…..whatever you have,
Let them be a part from you…
Even sadness……
As a friend…we are willing to…..
Wiling to listen…give advice…..
Even sacrifice, if needed….

That is a magnet in everyone’s heart
That will attract true friend.
That magnet is unselfishness,
Thinking of others first.
When you live for others,
They will live for you…

-Friends forever-

Get what you want?

why we can't get what we want?
The world is unfair...to be honest....
sometimes...we wait...and wait...
but the miracle we waiting for never occur..
i wander is it possible for a miracle to occur?
or it just a stupid imagination...for little child??
sometime, we sacrifice a lot..
time...put a lot of hard work....
but it seems that...it did work out that way...
the way we want it to be....
why.....
is it wrong to hoping?
is it wrong to sit down and wait?
too many.......time taken....
result might not be important...
but sometime...when we didn't
get what we want...
that kind of feeling is like...
get a 'E' in your English test,
or like the both charter in the film 'Titanic'
(haha....who knows....)
it's just....
well.......hard to accept
the truth that...we won't get what we want.....

it's so hard.............

Why it's so hard to let some
stuff to just 'flow' away?....
sometime we try to forget things
that make us feel sad...and down...
when we already feel free from those sadness
and worries
it just came back...hunting us...
why we can't escape from it? we just ......
all we want just....freedom....
freedom.....to those problem...
when we on the progress letting it go...
it just came back hunting us..
again, and again......
the world is so unfair............
why can't just let us......
....be peace...........
err........

International understanding

At last...free to update blog...
so tired, IU is finished...at last...
haha...we all have fun...but at the same time..
really tired o....

Disappoint

Disappoint can really 'kill' someone....
it make you feel bad, feel angry, and
most worse, it cause you sadness and hurt...
I tried, try to persuade people
to look into my idea..
but they never give a positive feedback
We stand up and speak for our own idea
if they still don't accept it.
nvm lo...
that is what we think.

But not our heart...
our heart is actually hurt...
disappointed.....
we try to give what we can give
do what we can do....
we want to help...
but the rejection seems
showing that they didn't appreciate
what we do...
And that really hurt us....deep....
without realising it......
and especially from someone we really care

disappoint
will cause tears
but bad news for me is that,
the tears can't come out..
so the wishes that hope after
crying will feel much more better
just seems not going to happen.....