2009 unforgetable..... a sad thing

It's the last day of the year...
What I've do this year?
What I've experienced?

hmm..... Let's recall.
A lot of things happen actually.

This year, We are shocked by the sad news,
The NEWS that i will NEVER FORGET
One of our best friend passed away in Terengganu in an accident.
She passed away after 2 surgery.
Sad. (that's the only word i can use)
My friend Joey message me while I still in East part of the country- Sabah.
I was shocked; I though i read wrongly the message;
hence I phone back and ask: WHAT happen?
No one know. Only few people know what exactly happen.
I feel so shock, I can't accept what is happening,
I try to phone my friends, and ask: What happen?
No one give me an accurate explanation of the cause of the death.
The next day, I phone my classmate and inform them this news.
Everyone ask me the same question "What happen?"
I only said "accident, she was in the coma after surgery....Then she never open her eyes again after the 2nd surgery. "
When i keep on repeating this sentence, i start to accept the truth that: Eng Har in not with us anymore, She left! I cry during almost each phone call.
That night, i pray. But i could not continue, my heart fill the pain.
I ask God:"Why? Why is this happen? She never do wrong, everyone like her.
She is just like our angel, she always bring us smile. How can this happen?"
That night, I cried. This is the first time I cry loud after received the news.
I still remember it's a Thursday.
Two days later, after the funeral, my Godmother send me message.
She told me that she went to friend's granddaughter funeral.
She saw the picture of me in the Eng Har's album.
She ask me if i know the news,
I told her i knew, and she also explained to me what had happen........
Again I cried, I feel really sad.
After days, i recall back. I have dream before:
(I think it was the time when she was still in coma)
Eng har appear in my dream, looking to me and smile,
She said: "I'm back to home"
Now i know...
She is safe, She is back to HOME.
a HOME that really safe.
She will always be our angel, angel that bring happiness to us.

Few more shocking news,
-2 of people that i know, having cancer.
One is a friend of mine,
another is a teacher that i respect so much.
The good news is that they are recovering.
-My Godmother involve in accident,
admitted to hospital, no one tell me....
i only knew when meeting her in church 2 weeks after she discharge from hospital.
I'm sorry for unable to visit her, and be with her...

Of course, there's good news also.
-which include involving my self in the LF campus ministry, LL.
This really help me a lot in my life,
especially when i am having hard time.
-Few friends of mine getting married,
congratulation to them!

A lot of things in our life, we can not predict.
What we can do is appreciate each moment we have,
and always feel thankful for the blessing and graces given to us.

Wishing you all
Happy New Year!!!

Opportunity to be happy

every moment is an opportunity for you to be happy.

It's true. The question is what you choose?
A lot of things happen today, and you think that:
this world is so unfair;
the people around you suck;
they are terrible people!
Then you'll said:
"How am i going to be happy if i am surrounded by this type of situation/ people?
I don't think I can do it"

Well, that's true. No one feel happy when these BAD things happen
BUT, think again. Why not be happy?

Happy, because you meet these terrible people
and they teach you how to be patient;
how to be kind and forgiving!

Threat them like your teacher,
because they teach you a lesson,
and remind you that how lucky you are,
for you are not one of them lol......

Enjoy each moments,
Remember choose to be happy instead of angry.

Merry Christmas ^^

It's near, It's now,

Finally, the moment comes......
I starting to feel the tension,
When someone on leave;
someone didn't pick up the phone;
someone didn't reply my message;
someone didn't let me know that whether they accept my message in the e-mail or not.
someone have been scold because of my mistake.
and when I'm not there to settle what i need to accomplish,
and get the explanation from others.
I feel tense, stress...
I also don't know why i write the VC name on
proposal at the first place!!
I guess it's " You Get It" situation.
It's my mistake when I did not delete the name,
now we have a lot to worry, Sorry for putting you in this problem, Irene.
I don't know how to do, where to start,
what to fix, to who i can ask?

I knew it,
I knew something bad is going to happen...
My heart tell me this afternoon,
it beat so fast,
I feel worry, anxiety,
my heart Speaks asking me to prepare
because it knew something is going to happen,
my instinct is right!

Now, I am worry and lost.
I don't want to think too much,
I don't want to care,
I just want to stop thinking of it for 1 day.
I just want to surrender it to God,
That's all i can do for now.

hard? there's purpose

That's not to say it's an easy purpose, or a convenient one.

It might very well seem hard or even impossible, but it only looks that way.

The truth is that one day you will look back and see how all the pieces fit together.

And how your life has been a complete and utter success - Anonymous

This sentence is really true. A lot of times, we always feel that things that happen in our life are so tuff and complex.

Sometimes, it only looks that way….

The way we think and the way we handle things will affect our performance and the outcome.

Hard? difficult? complex you said?

Well there's purpose.

Jer 29:11 (NIV) "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord,

"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Currently I went back to work at my former work place. I still remember, the last time I was there, I’m so tense and finally I mess up everything.

But this time, it’s different story. (Probably I gain my experience)

I went back and everything just seems to be okay. How easy it is!

Now I’m comparing the present and the past.

I guess the way I look on that particular issue; the way I think, will change the outcome.

Therefore, don’t think too much!

Never look down or think that what you do now is not important, everything has its own purpose!

What you learn, experience now will be a piece of key or

pictures.

At the end of the day, you will use all these pieces to complete the drawing (the picture of your life) what, how your future will be.

So remember to enjoy each moment, do and try your b

est to complete what you need to do. As I said, every pieces count, there are important, because they will affect the outcome.

Ask, Seek, Knock

I open my Bible and saw verse that remind me the Grace of God;
"Ask, and you will receive;
Seek, and you will find;
knock, and the door will be opened to you"
- Matthew 7:7

Something to share here:
(special dedicate to those who need it ^^)

You might not believe the Word of God,
but this verse can apply to all human beings.
In this verse,
[words, action, and answer] occur.
Something important over here which you do not see.
It's something that you don't see.
It's "Faith"
"To have faith is to be sure of the things we hope for,
to be certain of the things we cannot see." - Hebrews 11:1
This also mean that faith will perform miracle.
If only you believe.

1 Ask = words
when you ask, you use words.
These words represent you, your heart, your will, and your question.
2 Seek = action
after you ask, you search (action). Do what you need to do.
Take action, cause action speak louder than words.
3 Knock = answer
when someone knock the door, you will open it right?
yes, that is answer; a feedback.
If you do not knock the door;
you never know whether the owner of the house is inside or not?
It's the same when you did not open the door when someone knock the door;
you never know who is out there, if you do not open the door.

So to obtain answer, take step by step
Ask, search, knock = words, action, answer
Be brave my friend !!
Don't worry too much, everything will be all right.
Think before you speak, before you take actions;
Do it before you regret.

successful relationship

Something i read and want to share...
" A successful relationship requires falling in love many times,
always with the same person."
Always with the same person, but deeper and deeper every time.
So what's your opinion?

For me, i agree. Of course it depends on what type of situation and who to apply this concept -.-''
If you ask me my relationship with God = Muy bien!! (very Good in spanish)
He always make me glad, prepare me and listen to me....stand by and take good care of me... wah if only i have boyfriend like that ....

If apply to BF/GF that kind of people.. hmm
i think situation counts.

If your are in a relationship, it is a very good advice.

If you like me, single/been dump/rejected. Then SORRY la...
i don't think this advice helps. it make you feel more pain!
You see, when u being rejected,
falling in love again with the same person gives you more pain.
you feel more sad, and disappointing.
so the advice:
If you think you've reached the end, stop generalizing.

birthday gifts!!

My birthday gifts from 2 best friend. the most early one ^^
From see Mun :
the second one from Hsin, guess what is it?
is umbrella!!!