It's the last day of the year...
What I've do this year?
What I've experienced?
hmm..... Let's recall.
A lot of things happen actually.
This year, We are shocked by the sad news,
The NEWS that i will NEVER FORGET
One of our best friend passed away in Terengganu in an accident.
She passed away after 2 surgery.
Sad. (that's the only word i can use)
My friend Joey message me while I still in East part of the country- Sabah.
I was shocked; I though i read wrongly the message;
hence I phone back and ask: WHAT happen?
No one know. Only few people know what exactly happen.
I feel so shock, I can't accept what is happening,
I try to phone my friends, and ask: What happen?
No one give me an accurate explanation of the cause of the death.
The next day, I phone my classmate and inform them this news.
Everyone ask me the same question "What happen?"
I only said "accident, she was in the coma after surgery....Then she never open her eyes again after the 2nd surgery. "
When i keep on repeating this sentence, i start to accept the truth that: Eng Har in not with us anymore, She left! I cry during almost each phone call.
That night, i pray. But i could not continue, my heart fill the pain.
I ask God:"Why? Why is this happen? She never do wrong, everyone like her.
She is just like our angel, she always bring us smile. How can this happen?"
That night, I cried. This is the first time I cry loud after received the news.
I still remember it's a Thursday.
Two days later, after the funeral, my Godmother send me message.
She told me that she went to friend's granddaughter funeral.
She saw the picture of me in the Eng Har's album.
She ask me if i know the news,
I told her i knew, and she also explained to me what had happen........
Again I cried, I feel really sad.
After days, i recall back. I have dream before:
(I think it was the time when she was still in coma)
Eng har appear in my dream, looking to me and smile,
She said: "I'm back to home"
Now i know...
She is safe, She is back to HOME.
a HOME that really safe.
She will always be our angel, angel that bring happiness to us.
Few more shocking news,
-2 of people that i know, having cancer.
One is a friend of mine,
another is a teacher that i respect so much.
The good news is that they are recovering.
-My Godmother involve in accident,
admitted to hospital, no one tell me....
i only knew when meeting her in church 2 weeks after she discharge from hospital.
I'm sorry for unable to visit her, and be with her...
Of course, there's good news also.
-which include involving my self in the LF campus ministry, LL.
This really help me a lot in my life,
especially when i am having hard time.
-Few friends of mine getting married,
congratulation to them!
A lot of things in our life, we can not predict.
What we can do is appreciate each moment we have,
and always feel thankful for the blessing and graces given to us.
Wishing you all
Happy New Year!!!
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