It's near, It's now,

Finally, the moment comes......
I starting to feel the tension,
When someone on leave;
someone didn't pick up the phone;
someone didn't reply my message;
someone didn't let me know that whether they accept my message in the e-mail or not.
someone have been scold because of my mistake.
and when I'm not there to settle what i need to accomplish,
and get the explanation from others.
I feel tense, stress...
I also don't know why i write the VC name on
proposal at the first place!!
I guess it's " You Get It" situation.
It's my mistake when I did not delete the name,
now we have a lot to worry, Sorry for putting you in this problem, Irene.
I don't know how to do, where to start,
what to fix, to who i can ask?

I knew it,
I knew something bad is going to happen...
My heart tell me this afternoon,
it beat so fast,
I feel worry, anxiety,
my heart Speaks asking me to prepare
because it knew something is going to happen,
my instinct is right!

Now, I am worry and lost.
I don't want to think too much,
I don't want to care,
I just want to stop thinking of it for 1 day.
I just want to surrender it to God,
That's all i can do for now.