tomorrow

There are things about tomorrow
that I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hands
And each step is getting brighter

it's time to let go

I have a Wanderful conversation today,
feel inspire and relief.
Sometimes we holds the feelings to tide,

untill you feel so tired and unable to continue to carry on.

What we can do is just let it go...

and surrender it to God.

I'm restless; I need faith and courage

Things has become more and more complicated regarding with my job.
I just feel so tired and lazy to deal with it....
I’m not a person like conflict and when I’m uncertain
I tend to run and run as far as I can to avoid discuss the topic.
I don’t want to talk about it and I don’t want to think about it.
It make me tension and peace is far to reach.

When God see this, He knew what to do,
God is a great God and responsible father;
He doesn’t allow His child to run away from problem
and He want us the children to learn
how to settle the problem not running away from it.

As a father He want us to be stronger like Him
not weak or become coward who just know how to hide.
I keep on ask God why He allow me to see things and wisdom to know it.
How come He don’t make a way for me?
Is it that hard?
I ask god to allow me, make a way for me.
Well I don’t get a green light,

Means I have to find solution for my problem and my concern;
Well I did manage to settle it.
One day after all settle, something happen and Oh NO!!!
I hate that! Trying to find solution, but problem keep on occur.
So I ask god: Are you making fun of my life?

Well when I calm myself I realize its God work’s
He is giving me second chance;
He gave me serenity to accept things I can’t change
and the courage to change things I can.
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking,
of course there is solution if I accept the offer.
As I go through this little book,
I saw the affirmation from my Debbie Ros – Purpose Driven

Yes, I always ask myself WHAT is the purpose?
("WHAT" is a word Bea and Derek teach me,
believe it or not;
it change my life and opens my heart
which allows me to see myself and deep inside my heart)
Having answer allow me to think and walk farther, so I ask myself:
Do I want to go for it? Does it help me?
What I want to achieve at the end? What is my expectation?

After asking myself,
I decided to reject the job offer.
To be honest I am sad and it is a hard decision to make,
I don’t know what to hope for.
But this is the will of God,
I know I need to put my trust on God

"Yes, I know what plans I have in mind for you,
Yahweh declares,
plans for peace, not for disaster,
to give you a future and a hope."
-Jeremiah 29:11-

At the end I feel restless;
What I need now is faith and courage.

LF

I really miss Life Fire.
Most important I miss my small community in KK.
The team that always support me physically and spiritually,
Friends that share my joy and tears,
Brother and sister in christ that journey with me no matter what,
even when they are tired carrying their own bagage.
I just want to tell you all, I miss you guys!

good bye note to studies

I finished my internship last week.
Another word, I'm going to graduate!
Well it's been 3 years I'm in Sabah.
It is an life changing experience!

I've discover more and more of myself,
I discovered my strength, my gifts, my weakness, what is hidden deep inside me.
I learned how to use my strength, my gifts, and how to overcome my weakness.
Most important; I feel closer to Jesus.

I feel blessed to be here in Sabah, to have family and friend here.
I'm happy because I have the oportunity to get to know my coursemate and friends.
I have a community and brother sister that always there for me when I need them.
Life fire and Life Line that draw me closer to God.
My brother and sister in christ that journey with me when I need them most,
I can only say thank you, and thank you for your blessing and prayer.

It comes to an end for study I guess....
I need to get ready in looking for a job,
time may change, stages of life change.
But one thing for sure, the relationship and faith I built wouldn't.
Through Him, I can do it!