She cried

11 Feb 2008
The day finally arrive, it's time for us back to school again and take result. After I took my result, I phone her. I ask how is she, and she started to cried. At that moment I was shocked. I did not expect that she'll cry. I'm trying to give her advise trying to let her calm. But I failed. I still remember those sentences she told me that make my heart broken. She said "I already lost everything! I'm sad because I try so hard.....and why it always has to be me? Now I can not do anything, it's all gone!!" At the same time, I started cried. I feel sad, at this moment I really hope that I can be with her at her side but I couldn't. I really hope that I can do something or say something that will make her feel better. But she continue to cry..... I guess what I need to do is to let her calm and cry as much as she want, until she accept it and go through it. I know her for a long time, we are best friend since 5 years ago. I never see her so sad before, my heart broken when in this situation. I'm worry but I know she can and she will go through it. She is much stronger....only this time she is very sad. But I know everything will be fine. What I want to say is that the storm will stop no matter how heavy is the rain, just like this evening. You'll see the beauty of the rainbow, feel the fresh air and the beauty of this world after the storm. So whatever happen just don't give up, because there's always hope waiting for us. We just need to search for it, and waiting with patient.

patient

Tomorrow i'll get my result, but at this moment i'm not thinking about it. My mood is a bit down and i can not do anything, because it is out of my control. I realise that many things had changed, and a lot will change. This including people and things around you. It might be good or bad, for some is a starting, but for me...it's still something new. My mood not so good, disappointed i guess in my work. i always scared that i can not do the best, i scared that i'm not good enough. Being good enough might not meaning something good. But for me it's important, at this moment i'm feeling like crying, but i can't. Haiz, growing up meaning we need to beer, and no more showing temper when angry or cry as lough as you want when you are sad. so... patient is the answer...

result....

The time has come, finally the result out next Tuesday, MPM already announced it. I'm feeling excited and nervous at the same time. That's no more waiting and asking:"When is the result?" at the same time, the heart beat increase. Taking a deep breath didn't help at all, my body is cool and my heart is warm. Could it be the environment factor? The rain has stop 2 hours ago, but the rain will start again soon. It's end of the world? =.=" who knows? haha/ I can't continue blogging my feeling is ...... lost in the middle of no where.

time

Time pass so fast and it's been the third day i rest. My boss out station, so we all off for 5days including Sunday. Tomorrow is the last day of my holiday so fast..the time pass. I've been spending my days by reading the books i borrow from library, i even take the chance to back to school! Everyone so busy, they just finished sport and waiting for test to begin. I don't even get to chat with the teachers. They just to busy! Tomorrow is the last day. Enjoy !

Curious?

Human being are very curious organisms. Is it good? or bad? Well we have to see it from many angle. It's good to being curious for kids, as they can explore and take the opportunities to learn something new. Thanks to curiosity, Newton teach us about the present of "gravity", and because of curiosity many of us learn something new each day and gain knowledge.
Now why is it bad of being curiosity? Usually the word curiosity is in the "bad term" because it tends to hurts someone or it tends to causing pain or hurts. But if you see from another point of view again, you might notice that the people around you just care for you. So enjoy the blessing you have if other people feel curiosity and wanted to know what happen to you and your life! Be positive thinking, cause it's the key of being happiness