Have you ever in a situation that you are going to have a new "hope" and a dream comes true journey? But at the same time starting of something you don't really want it to happen? Thinking that I'm going to study and stay away from home soon, it make me feel exiting. It's probably because it does mean that i grown up, and i need to be more self dependents and responsibilities with what i done and what i said. I believe that these two years experience, is something i can learn from. It's been a while that I learn how to be responsibilities for what you do, how to do things in your own and taking care myself. I had knew that and can do it well after living under care of a single parent for a long time. It's not doing things "for yourself" but for another person too. But sometimes situation can put you into decision making for "yourself" and "other people" it is good to make decision that concerns all. But is it the right thing to do? Or it just what you think is "right"? Having dreams is one of the most beautiful in the world. If you are one step closer to your dream. But to do so you have to go for a long time and left your old man all by himself. What will you feel? Well that's my feeling! I'm staying with my father, it just two of us in this few years after my brothers left to work. If i go study, he will be left alone in hometown. The decision was make, nothing will change it. But yet i still feel worry and exited at the same time. Of course sadness as well. I believe after this, there will be a lot of challenges and pain. So last checked is it a start of interesting journey? or a start of worry? Or it just the end ofbeing someone who concern for "other people"? I don't know, but i do know that one day I'll get the answer. Before that -Have Faith ! and Trust. Time may pass fast, but always remember that don't give up.
